First of all, I have incredibly talented friends. Photos above aren’t mine (credits to Geof). New year but not so new me it seems.
With last year ending, it honestly became a little bit annoying to scroll through my Instagram feed because everyone was summing up their 2017 in more or less the same way but if it annoyed me so much, I should have just closed the app right? Yes.
As we were on the threshold of crossing over into 2018, I honestly did not feel the excitement that people seem to be feeling. In fact I was mostly overwhelmed by the “obligation” that I had to commemorate the 31st of December 2017 in some mega special way and to usher in the new year with a bang. I understand that for some people it is a thing that they like to do; to come together and to celebrate the 2017/2018 time period. But I didn’t like it when I found myself feeling like I had to do that.
I am thankful for all that 2017 have brought and regretful of all that I’ve missed in 2017 and naturally, I do look forward to 2018 being a clean slate and being a year of untold possibilities; but of course everyday should be that way shouldn’t it? I have this page in my diary (the planner kind, not the dear diary kind) where I had a brain dump of goals I wanted to achieve in 2018 (and of course to carry them into my life as the years go on) and some of them sounded pretty trivial like “get a new toothbrush” (because it’s really been more than 3 months) and “don’t overdo it with the masking” (I have a tendency to use face masks more than what’s good for my skin – even if it’s within the recommended frequency – which actually irritates my skin) and then there’s the pretty much “duh” kind like “don’t be lazy” and “don’t Netflix so much” and then there’s the more serious-I-don’t-know-how-I’m-going-to-accomplish-them kind like “be more forgiving” and “be healthy”. Of course in theory, I know how to accomplish them, but translating that into action is another story is it not?
I know it’s not recommended or smart to have so many things I want to do but I think that it’s quite manageable. I feel like these are things that I definitely can put into practice daily. Like limiting Netflix time and such but I think it just really boils down to discipline. So I believe my 2018 is a year where I learn to be more disciplined. *cue confetti. I think that’s what all my brain dump essentially boils down to. I need discipline to be less lazy. Discipline to exercise. Discipline to not be late for classes. Discipline to read 52 books this year. Discipline for this and that; even for the trivial things like getting a new toothbrush (it’s the 2nd day of the year and my toothbrush is still the one from the last quarter of last year).
Here’s onwards and upwards guys not just for 2018 but for all the years ahead of us.